On Oct. 13, David took me to @ Gettys concert at First Baptist Atlanta. Kristyn Getty, the lead singer was VERY pregnant. And she wore a shiny sequin top that really showed off her belly.
I started fixating on it and became more and more distressed, because a few years earlier when we first became Christians, David and I didn't yet understand that children are a heritage from the Lord and He should decide how many we have, so we decided (surgically) not to have any more kids without consulting Him at all. I have always regretted that decision even though I know God has forgiven me.
But that night at the concert, as I stared at that glittering pregnant belly, God spoke to me and said that He allowed this to happen. He is using me to bring new life to a child in a different way than I planned. It won't be a baby that I hold in my arms but it is a wonderful life, and it is precious to God and to me. In that moment I saw His hand on my life to orchestrate the events leading up to the surgery, and how He redeemed a bad decision we made for something good, something life giving, that would bring glory to Him. I could finally let go of my regret, having closure on that chapter of my life, and rest securely in His arms.
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